Nuclear Meltdown and Roller Skates Come Full Circle

    A lot of things have been happening here on the little deer island.  I had a couple visiters who all chose to come at the busiest possible time, making meeting with them quite hectic.  My old beloved roommate Siyu came through Korea for a week's stay after his stay in China, but because he was staying mostly in Seoul it was difficult to meet up with him due to my tight schedule and we ended up not meeting.
    Another Fulbrighter contacted me and said she was working with professor Jeong Geun-Sik of Seoul National University while on Sabbatical from her position at Century College teaching disabilities studies.  We managed to meet up yesterday morning and I regretfully sent her off unaccompanied to do some sightseeing at Aeyangwon while I bathed the residents at the hospital.
    A third and quite unexpected visitor was my big brother in the capoeira world, Angelo, who came all the way to Yeosu to support his little cousin in the world inline roller skating championships.  We met up on Thursday night in Yeosu and saw some Colombians and Koreans burn up the Americans on the 500 and 1000 meter sprints.  Then we had some Samgyeopsal with his little cousin and another racer and got a motel before heading out the next morning to watch some more races in the blistering Korean Summer.
    From Yeosu I headed to Daegu where I met up with a Kang JeSuk sonsaengnim and a representative of a certain NGO working on issues affecting Hibakusha in Korea.  Hibakusha (korean: Pipokcha 피폭자) is of course the Japanese word for “bomb victim” which refers to the atomic bomb victims in Hiroshima and Nagasaki.  I had not realized that over 10% of Hibakusha about 20% of the overall fatalities from the Hiroshima bomb were Koreans, mostly brought to Japan to work in factories or coal mines.  Theirs is a sad history, in which they were forced by economic conditions or military orders to deploy to Japan to work for the Japanese war machine and then bombed by the Americans.  They returned to Korea only to be ostracized due to their physical scars and receive little sympathy in a society which did not have much room to sympathize with those who had suffered from the American bombing of Japan. They were often mistaken for Hansen's disease patients due to the scars left by the radiation wave which had caused their skin to shed from their bodies like thin bark from a tree.
    The NGO rep is herself a second generation hibakusha who has had a series of hip surgeries due to avascular necrosis of the hip joint.  They suspect that it is related to the fact that her mother was in Hiroshima and had radiation sickness due to the atomic fallout, but they cannot get recognition from the Japanese government in order to receive support that is given to hibakusha.  Avascular necrosis is usually caused by alcoholism or steroid use, but its other causes are unknown.  I suspect that maybe her condition is caused by a hormone imbalance resulting from the radiation that her mother was exposed to.  We had Daegu Makchang, a specialty of Daegu and the only worthy feature of Daegu cuisine.
    After our meal I went with Kang sonsaengnim to Hapcheon where we stopped into a inn run by a nice auntie.  An ethnomusicologist from the University of Toronto, Joshua Pilzer, was living there while studying the folk songs of Korean hibakusha.  He has also studied the folk songs of Korean comfort women.  It turns out he went to Evergreen State College in Olympia so he's well familiar with my home town.  He had some Polish vodka so we went up to the roof and polished that off with the Kang sonsaengnim while discussing various philosophical topics.
    The next day we went to the “Peace House,” the headquarters of the NGO advocating for Korean Hibakusha.  We met up with two first generation Hibakusha in their 60's.  Bae DongNok is a Korean Japanese man who was only several months old when the bomb was dropped on Hiroshima, giving him lifelong health problems.  He has healthy children and does work singing Korean traditional songs for Japanese schools to expose schoolchildren to the history of Koreans during imperial Japan.  Another man seemed fairly healthy himself but he had lost several children at childbirth to birth defects.  We drove to a village where many of the original hibakusha had settled.  There we visited the house of an old woman and her two daughters.  The father had passed away several days before.  The daughters were both mentally disabled.  One could not speak at all and the other could speak but could not hold a topical conversation.  She was somewhat unaware that her father had passed away several days before.  They lived there gardening small plots of land, in a state of poverty which one rarely sees in modern Korea.  The mother seemed worried about what would happen to her daughters when she passed away.  Kang sonsaengnim was trying to talk the second and less disabled daughter into joining  a group picnic the next day in Kangwondo at Inje, but she was somewhat reluctant to leave the house.
  
Update Sept. 9th
    Now it is Friday and I am in Seoul.  I stayed up all night talking with the other volunteers.  A Buddhist monk came to volunteer and we spent most of the night talking about Buddhist practice, yoga, Christianity, religion, film, politics, etc.  I went to work at 5:00 am and then had breakfast and took the bus to Seoul.  Getting ready for Chuseok and my departure from Korea in a couple days.
    I had been planning to visit Japan one last time before I left Korea, but I decided against it so that I could spend some more time in Sorokdo and then a few days in Seoul before leaving.  I called Suzuki-san, my host in Tokyo, to tell him I was not coming and I heard that he has signed up for the cleanup crews at Fukushima.  Suzuki is a contract electrical engineer for power plants and he has worked in some 30 countries around the world in Africa, South America, Southeast Asia, the Middle East, etc.  He also traveled to many places when he was a Buddhist monk including pilgrimages around the United States.  He lived briefly in the Seattle area as well.
    He's in his mid 50's and unmarried so he decided that it's better that he risk his life than younger people.  I could tell that there was something eating at him last time I talked to him but I wasn't sure what it was.  He said that there is a 10-year contract for working on the cleanup crew at Fukushima.  I hope he is not hurt by working there, it's probably one of the most dangerous places in the world to work.  But I believe he is the right person for the job.
    I talked to my dad and heard that he is going to visit Japan for the one-year anniversary of his brothers passing.  The last thing I did before I came to Korea was attend his wake on October 13th.  So I guess everything has come full circle.  Time to get back to putting my life together and learning how to be a grown-up in America.

The Little Deer Island

It's been a week since I arrived at Sorokdo, which translates literally to "Little Deer Island."  The reason for the name is the shape of the island, which resembles an animal of some kind if one looks at the map.  But it does happen to be inhabited by quite a few deer including, reportedly, some albino deer as well as wild boar. 

It's a very interesting place to be.  The volunteers are mostly around my age, and it's a great experience to be working as part of a team of Korean young people.  We are "individual volunteers" who stay for several weeks at a time but there are also "group volunteers" which come to the island and stay for a shorter period of time.  Among the other volunteers are some Christian missionaries who do leprosy volunteering projects in China as well. 

The schedule is from 5:00 AM to 5:00 PM.  We wake up early, and go to the hospital (really an assisted care facility) where we wake the residents to change their diapers and get their breakfast ready.  Breakfast is usually finished by 6:30 and then we eat, and rest until 9:00 AM.  Then we go back and help them wash their faces and hands, and before long change diapers again and get ready for lunch.  In the afternoon we escort them to physical therapy and Karaoke, and take them for walks in the park or visit with them. 

Sorokdo Island is basically a vestige of Japanese colonialism.  The entire island is a state-owned leprosy hospital.  About 550 residents currently reside here, though the island once held 6000.  Most live in the villages, but if they can no longer manage to live by themselves in the village they are moved into the old folks ward in the hospital, which is where the volunteers come in.  The volunteers also help out in the village with regular activities such as housework and cooking, cleaning, gardening, but i haven't been able to visit there as a volunteer because we are needed in the wards right now. 

The patients in the wards range from 70 to 100 years old.  Many of them are blind.  Some are missing both legs.  It's interesting to see how they get along, as different parts of their body fail them.  They all have very distinct personalities as well.  There is one guy we call "grandfather pervert" is a double-leg amputee with half-body paralysis.  He asks pretty young lady volunteers to help him with something and then grabs their arm.  We try to make sure that only the men have to change his diaper. 

In our ward there are about 35 patients, with more women than men.  Mostly I am responsible for eight men in the men's room, but I make rounds and visit with all the elders.  Some have lost most of their social skills and can't really communicate.  Some are quite lucid but they have no motor skills.  Some don't have any appetite but can speak and interact quite well.  One guy can barely move at all, I think he's suffering some sort of generalized paralysis which may be going untreated, but he always eats his entire meal.  There is one guy in our ward, Jeong Gye-sik haraboji, who has all his wits about him, he can see well and speak very clearly but he has lost most of his fingers and both legs.  He said he lost both legs to frostbite one night after a bout of heavy drinking when he was living in the village.  He's 70 years old and he has a friend who can walk and do most things by himself except speak.  So they get around pretty well between the two of them.  Jeong Gye-sik is like the boss in the ward, he knows what time everything needs to be done and exactly how it has to be done, so I always ask him if I have a question.  His nose is collapsed and his eyelids droop low giving him a glazed over expression but he's quite lucid and detail-oriented. 

I've had some good conversations with some grandmothers.  One lived with an American Soldier in Pusan when she was in her 20s, probably during or before the Korean war.  Then she caught leprosy when she was 30 and moved to Sorokdo.  She can't speak very much Korean or English, but she understands everything in English and Korean and her accent is very clear when she does speak English.  There is also a grandmother who they call "Miguk Halmoni" who is reportedly born of an American father.  I had trouble figuring out how that could be since she was born before the war and it would have to be an American missionary or perhaps a businessman of some sort.  She seems to understand English but she doesn't speak at all so it's hard to know anything about her past. 

One grandmother told me that she knew a lot of Japanese people before the war and she thought the Japanese are very warm-hearted people.  She's blind and has her legs amputated.  It was nice to hear such a sincere sentiment from a grandmother on an island that is strongly associated with the worst abuses of Japanese colonialism. 

There is a volunteer here who has been working for three years.  We call him "uncle," he is a lay buddhist with a shaved head and wears monk's clothes.  He insists he is not a monk but has been wandering around as kind of a layman-monk for some 30 years.  Before he was here he worked in a Buddhist Hospice for the elderly and another leprosy village.  He also spent several years in a Buddhist temple.  He's an interesting old guy, 50 years old, likes to drink and take walks in the forest.  He showed me all the woodland paths on the island.  After breakfast one morning we went for a walk and spotted 15 deer.  Some of them are pretty big too, with 2-foot antlers. 

As time goes on, the government will have to find something to do with this island.  The villages are slowly emptying as people pass away or move away if they have children who can afford to support them elsewhere.  There is a lot I could write about the history of this island.  Many of the residents were estranged from their families due to government insistence on quarantine.  Many of them performed a lot of forced labor.  The oldest man in my ward worked on the island during the Japanese occupation and did a lot of labor during that time.  Now he is blind but he can still walk fine.  But he has a kind of nervous disorder where he is always mumbling and grunting and fidgeting.  But he can communicate simple things like if he's hungry or needs to go to the bathroom.  He doesn't wear a diaper and can use the toilet by himself. 

It's almost time to go back to work.  I will leave it at that for now.  My friend Siyu is scheduled to visit this afternoon, I hope he doesn't miss his bus from Seoul. 

Enter August: meditation on flying bone chips

I’m finishing up my third and final week at Aeyangwon Orthopedic Hospital.  I’m also entering my final month in Korea.  It’s been a wild ride, I haven’t updated my blog in most of the time I’ve been here but there’s no time like the present. 

      Needless to say much of my time here is too boring to relate.  It consisted of a lot of studying Korean, volunteering at Severance Hospital in Seoul, learning some Salsa and playing with some really good capoeira folks in Seoul. 

      But the past month has been a ripe orchard of food for thought.  In May I met a Japanese Buddhist monk on the streets of Seoul.  He was returning from his day at the Yonsei Language Institute where he was learning Korean. He was walking down the street chanting and beating his uchiwadaiko, a Japanese “fan-drum” that is held in one hand and beat with a stick. 

      I recognized him immediately as a Japanese monk and stopped him for a conversation.  Takimoto-san told me that he was in Kangwondo working on an herb garden at an NGO called the DMZ Peace-Life Valley.  I decided to come visit him if I had the opportunity, and in July I had the pleasure of spending 7 days there. 

      My stay there was largely affected by the torrential rains.  We had about 3 solid days of work and some days of intermittent work.  But it was just as well because I was reminded how hard it is to work on an organic farm.  The work was largely stoop labor, cutting grass with a scythe in the cornfields, pulling weeds, and transplanting sesame plants from one place to another.  After about an hour of cutting grass (not to mention in boot-sucking mud), the groin muscles and thighs are totally exhausted.  It made me think of the original capoeiristas, slaves and sharecroppers playing in rodas in their free-time between swinging a machete in the canefields.  It takes another kind of strength to play beyond ones limits, and it reminds us why they are legends and we, merely their followers. 

      Every morning at 5:30 and every evening at 8:00 Takimotosan and I would chant/pray for an hour.  Chanting is quite different from silent meditation.  For me, Chanting is mentally much easier but also somewhat frustrating because the mind tends to wander incessantly during chanting.  The drums reach a perfect synchronicity and everything else seems to disappear, but then the mind resurfaces in unexpected places and I ask myself “how long has my mind been wandering?”  In silent meditation the focus is on the breath, and time seems to stretch out much longer, but the wanderings of the mind are entirely apparent. 

I’m curious about the different mechanisms of the two types of meditation.  Silent meditation aims at reduction of sensory input: closed eyes, silent room, focus on the breath.  Mantric meditation infuses the practitioner with stimulus: drums, mantra, and open eyes (I usually don’t keep my eyes open because it’s too much of a distraction). 

Takimoto-san’s grandfather was an engineer working in Korea when he was taking prisoner by the Soviets at the end of WWII.  He has therefore dedicated himself to praying for peace on the Korean DMZ.  His goal is not to spread his sect of Buddhism, which is good because Japanese Buddhism is generally not taken seriously in Korea.  Many Koreans are aware of the tenets of Jodoshinshuu Buddhism which allow monks to marry, and they associate Japanese Buddhism with Sokka Gakkai, a politically engaged cult in Japan derived from Nichiren Buddhism.  There’s also the still-strong backlash to Japanese state Shinto being imposed on the Korean population during Japanese colonialism, with simultaneous suppression of indigenous Korean Buddhism. 

Takimoto-san’s situation reminds me of the distinction I often make between pilgrims and missionaries.  Pilgrims are people who travel to foreign lands in order to learn, while missionaries are people who travel to foreign lands in order to teach.  I like to think that there is a lot of pilgrim in the best missionaries, and that people can end up learning more than they bargained for while abroad.  But the mormons and so many others are proof that simply traveling abroad does not result in learning from said culture. 

After my stint on the DMZ, I came down to Yeosu in Jeollanamdo to stay at Aeyangwon, the hospital founded by RM Wilson.  I finish my stay here on Friday.  I’ve thankfully been kept fairly busy, and given a large comfortable house to myself.  The days are spent in the surgery room or at the assisted living facility which houses some 65 geriatric recovered Hansen’s disease patients. 

The assisted living facility, where I spend two days a week, is a home for those on government welfare who were disabled by Hansen’s disease.  I mostly spend my time there scrubbing floors, mowing lawns, pushing wheelchairs, and making chit-chat with the staff and residents.  There’s a feisty old woman from Taegu who is always yelling at me about how important it is to believe in Jesus and how my name is a colloquial term for the male member in Korean.  I have developed a good relationship with her in a short time, her birthday is this Sunday so I’m hoping to get her some flowers. 

The surgery room is in the main hospital.  It is one of the busiest orthopedic surgery units in Korea, conducting almost 4,000 surgeries last year.  Most of them are joint replacement surgeries, most commonly total knee replacements followed by hip replacement and Spinal Laminectomy and shoulder replacement.  I have also observed athroscopic knee surgery, knee fusion, vertebral fusion, leg amputation, and hand/foot fusion surgeries. 

It is a strange experience to first step into a surgery room.  Orthopedic surgery is essentially carpentry where the medium is bone rather than wood.  It is all hammers, saws, nails, screws, wrenches, chisels, drills, scaffolding and vices.  Yellow liquefied bone marrow is flying everywhere.  The scent of burning flesh due to the vein cauterizing/cutting utensil is heavy in the air.  It takes about 2 days to become 80% desensitized, but the amputation is still definitely a little bit creepy. 

Every med student must decide between surgery and internal medicine.  I’m not sure about which one is more appealing.  I tend to think that my strengths lie more to the side of internal medicine.  One of the turnoffs of internal medicine is the idea of doctor-as-deskjob.  There is little hands-on activity, its all assessments, diagnoses and prescriptions.  But I’ve come to see that surgery could potentially be an extremely boring field as well, if more lucrative.  Surgeons specialize in the same handful of surgeries and perform them over and over again… in korea’s case, as many as 50 of the same surgeries in a week.  This would give one the chance to master one’s craft, but it could also start to feel like a dull under-utilization of one’s mental resources.  Of course no two bodies are the same, there is always the possibility of the unexpected in surgery.  But in the case of knee replacement, the basic formula is essentially cut and dried.  An expert physician walks away from the table about 10 minutes after he first picks up the scalpel, and he doesn’t necessarily turn his conscious brain on in the interim.  I don’t mean to downplay the amount of effort it takes to achieve this mastery, but I’m curious about how it compares to other fields of medicine. 

Tomorrow is my last day in the surgery room.  During the first week I observed, and over the past two weeks I started assisting in surgery.  This means cutting sutures, holding suction, and holding the wound open while the doctor is cutting using claw/lever-like tools.  I also pull the pins out of the bones and remove the scaffolding and metal joints.  It’s a great challenge trying to memorize the order of the surgery so that I can do what needs to be done when it needs to be done.